With will

When you first meet someone and you like them, you feel excited and wonderful about it. New emotions rush through your body and mind and you experience wonderful sensations. These are the first things you feel when you start to appreciate someone and begin to fall for them. As the time goes by, there are two senarios. One is that you don't feel so attached to that person anymore and the excitement is over, or you can't wait to meet them again and look into their eyes and see happiness.

If it is the first, then don't call it love. It is just a crush. Maybe something more, but not love. A crush is something that begins suddenly and intesively but fades quickly along the way. Love is something that grows day by day and becomes stronger and deeper. You love someone when you have experienced some stuff together, rough or good times; it doesn't matter but as long as you go through it together. It can be a friend or a lover. But remember one thing; time not only helps people to bond better but it also has great impacts on their relationships.

Sometimes people get into a rut. And just get used to be with the other person. It happens to everyone. But then, the relationship is in their hands. Only should they want it, it will continue to become stronger and get out from the rut it is in.

The bottom line is that after a period of time, it is in the peoples hands if they want to do something about the deterioration that time causes. If it is love, it will overcome this obstacle and continue. If it is a crush, then it's colors will fade away along with the emotions and feelings.

It doesn't depend on people and circumstances, but weather or not there is will. With will, everything can change, for better or worse.

Intricated overtues and happy endings.

As it turns out, all this axiety was pointless. I passed my exams and I'm jubilant about it. Now, the thing that I'm looking forward the most, is of course my trip to England next week.

I will be away for about one week, so there aren't gonna be any updates until then I suppose. Thanks to the secretary responsible at IFA ( Institute Français d' Athens ) that made my day and cheered me up. Now I will enjoy the rest of the summer properly.

One thing I learned from these past 4 days, was that failure must be handled with patience and courage. Atter all, we cannot be perfect.

Have a wonderfull week.

Good company

Good company can cure almost everything.
After finding out about my first academic failure, I definately wasn't in the mood of going out. But I gave it a shot.

At the end, I realised that even a failure or a fiasco, can't prevent you from having a nice time if you have a good company.
Also, this time I stepped down from the place of the supporter that I have always been. And let other people in charge. This made me feel even better.

Thanks to all. Thanks for being there.
Cheers.

Failure

Failure sucks.
So do your fucking best.
And try with all you heart.
So they don't have the right to say you didn't try enough.

I have a lot of theories of how to overcome failure, but all right now seem useless and pointless.

First, the very own you, then comes love.

What is love? I mean, is it a feeling? A state of emotion? A behaviour towards a specific person? Is it an itchy burn that you sense when you are near them? Is it a substance that you brain products? Might be all these, might be nothing from the above.

Love is the strongest feeling an individual can feel. Then, it is joy and happiness which are given, when there is love. But, can you be happy without it? No one can really know. So i guess the answer is no. You cannot be happy without love. Love is the mother of all other emotions and feelings. So we do have love every day in our lives from friends and family, because we have joy and happiness and fun.

But, when do you know if you love someone? I personaly think it is complicated because it differs from person to person. Everyone respods to the circumstances based on their own views and character. Someone can say that they love someone else, because they bring them excitement. Some others can say that they love certain individuals because they can feel safe around them. This list could go on and on, which is pointless.

If you know yourself, and you know what you can do, then you definately know if you love someone or not. It takes time to get to know the very own you, but when you get the chance, the feeling is amazing. You feel impervious and ready to face every obstacle. Ready to play the game. Ready to love & be loved.

Inspiration

It is 23:32, Saturday night.
After staying in today, I finally realised that people and situations are my inspiration. I feel like my brain is drained from ideas and thoughts. Some people need just to see a flim to get inspired. Others need to listen to some music. I do these things too. But I need to get in touch with something that is alive. Something interactive. Something that it's ending is unknown, and my share is to examine all possible endings, whilst I gain experience. I'm tired of people not thinking about the consequences and just do whatever it feels like doing. From one hand, it is great to be spontanious and just express yourself, but on the other hand, it is immature. So, learn from the mistakes you make. That's what experience is all about.

An extrovert.

It is a word that makes me think of the exact opposite of its meaning. Even when I try to consider it correclty, I find it very difficult.

Every person finds his own ways to express their emotions and what they feel. And almost everyone has found the way to do it and which methods should they follow in order to succed in it. But I guess I'm included in the small minority percentage of failure to succed in this part. At this period of my life, it is very crusial to let the people who are close to me, to know how I feel. And I have the need to. And I want to show them, but something gets in the way.

I have been trying a lot to figure ways of expressing myself, but I've learned one thing; The person you want to talk to, can't understand a lot of things except the real deal. Sometimes, when you are beating around the bush about something, they cannot understand that it is only because you find difficulties in expressing yourself, no matter how many times you have told them that you can't. They think that what you are about to say is bad for them and they are getting prepared for the worse, so they can't help you.

The bottom line is that, no one can help you. Some people say that when the right person and the right feelings are together at the same time, you can express yourself correctly and right to the point. But this is not the case.
When I was at the verge of losing an important individual from my life, I panicked! Even after taking a while, I finally managed to say what I feel. It was very difficult. Cold sweat was all over me. I was afraid that i might say something with the wrong words and mess it up. I kept making these stupid senarios in my head.

But last night, I came to a conclusion; You shouldn't get obsesed about what's going to happen next if you say how you feel. If the other person really cares for you, he or she will try equally as much as you do, to solve the issue. Don't be scared to risk. Because you can lose a lot great stuff; and I have lost many. But this time I denied to let this happen again. I risked, took a chance and expressed how I feel and even though it was quite hard to do, i did it. It is all about taking decisions..

Some people.

Today should be about chance, and beginings or even continuation.
But it was for so much more.

I've learned now that people don't always take you for granted. Some of them want to feel your love often, because they really want to feel. They really want to experience. In this society of everything being fake, some people want insurance, that the other person does indeed care for them. Some people simply want real feelings and real situations. Some people want to experience love and friendship in a true and pure way, like how it should be done. And not how it is being done. So, show your love to these people. Because some people are truly there for you. Some people make the difference and want to matter in this world. Some people are almost ready to give you their all.

But after all, it's only some people...

Enjoy.

Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.

Enjoy every smile, every hug, every walk, every thought, every feeling, every expirience, every love, every heartbreak, every-THING.
Make your life, yours! Live it the way you want and simply taste the fruit it gives you. Happiness, and fuzziness and warm feelings. It is short. Enjoy :)

Life paths & changes

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.

Things in life don't come easy and ready for you. Never. You have to fight for what you want and defend your honour and prerogatives. The everyday life is a new battle and a game for each one of us that has to play. But before any game, the players decide their moves and what actions should they make. So should we. Every morning, we have to make small or big decisions for our lives that may affect directly or not our future. With decisions, definately comes change too. No one should be afraid of change as long as the decision he or she have taken, are theirs. It is every man for himself. Everyone of course can give you their opinion, and what they would do if they were in your shoes, but they are not you! We manage our lives the way we want and we change them until they make us feel great about ourselves.

An unfortunate event should not affect us. Even if it is a break up, or something personal, we should set aside the differences and problems, and continue living our lives while trying to solve them. Bad luck in professional affairs or reletionships, is indeed something that could ruin your mood and affect your strength. But for no reason, should you be miserable about it. You single the problem out, and try to solve it without letting it bugging you until it is gone. Life is way too short for us to consider it difficult and complex. So why agonise about things that can happen anytime and to anyone? These issues and problems should be embraced and not hated. Because after all, unfortunate events and mistakes, give us experiences and makes us more mature, so why hate them? There is one thing I've heard; that in the end, everything happens for a reason...

Important tunes

Some songs that got me out from some serious rough times and accompanied me at great too.

• Here without you - 3 Doors Down
• One Last Goodbye - Anathema
• Save Yourself - Sensefield
• Kiss Me - New Foun Glory
• Ember Drive - Walls Of Jericho
• In The Sun - Joseph Arthur
• Makeup Smeared Eyes - Juliet Simms
• You Had Me At Hello - A Day to Remember
• I Never Dreamed - Black Label Society
• Sex Raptor - Horse The Band
• Pouring Reign - AS Blood Runs Black
• Here In Your Arms - Hellogoodbye
• It's Been A While - Staind
• I Miss You - Blink 182
• Just Hold Me - Maria Mena
• The City Below - 36 Crazyfists

A kiss is a moment

As happens sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone.

Thats what a kiss is. It is an intense feeling that lasts about a moment. So enjoy it as it lasts. Wait passionately for the next kiss, but remember heartedly the last one. 'Cause the feelings and sensations that it wakes in you, are priceless and only felt with something real and true. So search for true passion, because even one little kiss is worth waiting.

seth & summer

The darkness doesn't have any answers

When life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness, who will you choose to face it with? Will it be someone you trust? Will they be wise? And will their love for you help them to guide you to the light? Or will they lose their way in the darkness. Will they make noble choices or will that person be someone untested? Someone new? Life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness. When it does - is there someone in your life you can count on? Someone who'll watch over you when you stumble and fall and in that moment give you the strenght to face your fears alone.

That's when you finally realise the value of the people that are in your life. After the mistakes, the pain and the betray, comes the knowledge of the expiriences. The individuals who help you to get through these difficult times of despair, are the ones that truly care for you. They don't leave you agonising with the complicated affairs alone, but comfort you in the greatest way possible.

However, no matter how close they are, they cannot solve your issues and problems. Only you. Because it is your life. your choices, and after all, your mess. They can only give you courage, and strengh, so you can go on and come up with the solutions by yourself. Let yourself decide for your life. No one can manage the way you live and how things work. Things in your life work with your pace and rythm. So make your decisions alone, 'cause even immature, they will be your own. You cant hold on to someone besides yourself. There is a great chance that they handle the situation somehow else, which will not represent you. Make your decisions. Choose the things you want. Choose your life. Don't stay in darkeness, 'cause it doesn't have any answers. only inside your heart and mind.