Musical Memories

In every movie, when something shocking or romantic is going to happen, a tune is a about to start and with its' notes, it allows the viewers to experience the film with more that just their eye-sight. It gives them the opportunity to imagine and sense how the person is feeling in the film. Despair, agony, impatience, joy, love and so much more can be brought up to the surface of one's character once the music begins. In some cases a piece of music can make an individual feel all these sentiments simultaneously. That's how I personally feel once I hear " Better In Time" by Leona Lewis.

This particular song is one of my all-time favorites. its' lyrics are so powerful and dynamic that sometimes I feel that I am flying and I am on a cloub of infinate possibilities. Its' melodic and peacefull combination of music and lyrics is simply perfect. The piano notes and the soothing vocals are just what anyone would need after a disappointing experience. I first heard the song while I was going home one day. This tune must have been downloaded accidentally with some others and then got into my ipod while sychronizing it with my computer. That day I had a rather bad experience that was quite devastating for me. When I heard the song, I thought it was pure fate. Its' lyrics were exactly what I needed to hear; " It is going to hurt when it heals too, but it will all get better in time". Without even knowing it, I had arrived home and I was already confident that all would be alright.

That day will never be forgotten. It was the day when I learnt that whatever happens, we should do what is best for ourselves. Everything bad will fade away eventually, leaving behind a lot of knowledge from the past mistakes. Everything will get better in time and each moment we should smile because we deserve too.

That Friday night is important to me because I had finally realised one of the meaings of life; the one of moving forward.

My talent

This post is different from the other ones. I will write once about myself. I shuffle through these blogs and all I can see is people describing their days but nothing of a great value or help for the others. Why do others should care how was your trip to Maui or how big is the fish you caught with your second cousin and his sister in law? That's absurb.

I had a blog since I was in juniour high school. I used to write two entries, three max, and then simply delete them and acted like they never existed and opened a brand new blog. I don't know why I did that back then. But you see, after a long time I finally realised. You know, I have this talent, this distrurbing and unpleasant talent; pushing & hiding everything away.

Exhibit 1:
I deleted these entries. I hid what it took my so much time to write. I had no reason. I just did it. I cannot stop wondering what had got into my mind back then. Why did I keep starting over again from scratch and why I kept writting on a blog, even though I insistenly kept deleting after all?

Exhibit 2:
Friends. This one little word. I have now understood its real meaning. It took me almost sixteen years but I got it after all. Some people don't even care to bother.
I have kept so many people at a distance and all that because I don't want to trust. I don't want to be tricked. I just don't.

Exhibit 3:
love.

I could go on and on with these 'Exhibits' but that just pointless for me and tiring for you. And even if I know what is wrong with me I cannot make it better. At least I admit it. Take me for what I am. I play with all my cards open but still beat you in this game called life. You choose whatever you want, I choose values and my brains. I show exactly what I am and what my intentions are. Why don't you try it for once? What's your excuse?

Love; not so ever-lasting as they believe

After a Sex and The City series marathon i finally realised; all that there is out there, is friendship. The only ever-lasting feeling. If you all reflect for a moment and think about the past and experiences you know that other people have, love comes and goes.
So I cannot help but wonder: why we all carve so much a feeling that eventually will fade away ? Why we kill ourselves trying to achieve something that it will go away after a certain time ? We live in this world of everything being fast paced, faceless and only reaching acqaintances, so why we keep trying ? Can't we just settle for what is given ? And even if love gives us the opportunity to feel full of energy and offers us a cloud of infinate possibilities for a certain time, why do we do that to ourselves? Why tortur ourselves with a sneak peak of heaven, if we will never have the opportunity to join ?

Expression

There comes a time when a person needs to burst out, to let all these suppresing feelings go. Expression comes in different spaces, sizes and you even could say moments.
Each and every one has his/her own way of expressing themselves. But sadly, the vast majority of them doesn't really know how to do it properly.
Today's modern life is chaotic enough, so as to make people cherish some peace and quiet, especially when it comes to their mentallity. The relief that comes after letting go any grudges, is the so called expression. Most people express themselves with the wrong ways; for example, they steal, cheat, fight and so much more. But these violent actions aren't the correct ways of expressing yourself. Now you are going to say, there is no wrong or right when it comes to expression because it is something personal, but actually there is. When you let out your emotions at someone else's expence, is not expression; it is crime. Dont become a criminal just because inside you there is despair or anger. Become a writer.

Writing can express sentiments, thoughts, dreams.. It can enhance communication, or even help you to reach a conclusion or find a solution to a problem. It can help you organise your thoughts and allow you to escape the chaos that has been created. Writing is the safest way to express yourself. You cannot hurt anyone literally. And sometimes metaforically. Because, before we write something, we think of it first. And also, by writing what we want down, we give ourselves the chance of getting everything out of our system without worrying about trust and loyalty from the person you would tell if writting was not the case.

I guess that all I am trying to say is that writing is a brilliant way of expressing one's self. There are no trust issues, no games, no set-ups. It is just you and a piece of paper (or blog in this case).
Cant find a way of expressing what keeps haunting you down? Just write about it and I'm 100% sure that it will be of vital help.

Twisted people.

Every single day proves that the new generations are becoming more and more self-distractive. You can really understand this predicament, just be being in school; the place were a teenager's character is built up.

Today's youth, and especially the girls, have discredit the bounds of kindness and loyalty, especially when it comes to friendships. Every one is a social climber and craves for some popularity and adoration. Almost every feeling that can be out there; friendship, love, kidness, secrecy, are overtaken by ostensible ones. These people are so impudent that have ousted these little things that make us feel happy about ourselves and for the others also. They spread countless shallow rumors about anyone, so that they can come closer with their new beyond suspicion pray. It's a nefarious circle that you cannot get your way out of. Their ploys are not witty, but pathetic. They are the ones that miss out on life because they try to live theirs through someone else's. Don't become one of them.

Make a choice. CHOOSE LIFE. Choose real values and not the ones that you were ushered to believe in. Hold back at this sinister menace. They dont deserve any of your time, maybe just a bit of lamentation.

Story of Ghosts

A while back, about 3 months or so, I discovered the new album that Nine Inch Nails released. Those mystic and arousing melodies are ideal to lay back and relax while reflecting your next move.

Nine Inch Nails presents Ghosts I - IV, a brand new 36 track instrumental collection. Ghosts I - IV sprawls Nine Inch Nails across a variety of new terrain. "This collection of music is the result of working from a very visual perspective - dressing imagined locations and scenarios with sound and texture; a soundtrack for daydreams" said Trent Reznor.

As you listen to those songs, you can identify with most of the sounds; Some of them remind the wind, some others the water or even the sun. Mr. Renzor is right; this instrumental collection is ideal for daydreaming.

Enjoy.

Now I learn how to Kung Fu.

Hey all you bloggers out there. I know I haven't been around much but not only my inner reflections and queries need me, but reality too.

As it turns out, I came to the conclusion that I may take a lot of time to make a decision, but in the end, it is always for the best. I have now learnt to trust my insticts and follow my dreams and my path. Dont ever give up. Not even in the hardest obstacles. Take Kung Fu Panda for example. No matter the difficulties, he believed in himself. Even the master was trying to make him quit. He might wanted to, but deep inside him he knew. He knew he was destined to do great things. He trusted his insticts.

So stick to your plan and instincts and wants. No one knows what's best for you, except YOU. Stop looking in other peoples thoughts to find the solution or the right choice. There isnt any. Every choice defines each person for what he/ she is. To expect a solution from another individual is way wrong. Cause in hard times, someone's character shows its true colors. What if the colors that the decision outshines arent yours ?