Bad Judgement ?

I think that I might have regretted some choices I have made back in the past.
I don't know if I want to fix this. I don't like playing with other people's feelings. They don't deserve it. HE doesn't deserve it.

So can give me the exact meaning of "love"? or of " falling in love" ? 'Cause I can't seem to understand any of it. Am I not welcoming love in my life? WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?

Everything seems to have a manual; machines, services. Why not love too? I think it would give a clue to the naive and a certainty to the hard-working brave ones.

Dwelling on Memory Lane

It's Sunday night and I can't stop thinking about the past.

I keep wondering if i have made the right choices and decisions. The thing is that are these feelings coming up the surface cause they are real or it's just a nostalgic mood that casts it's spells on anyone every now and then (?)

As time goes by, I have realised that I dont deal with any of my inner problems. I just hide them well very deep in the closet named ' soul and heart ' and I keep going on no matter what. Is it because every connection I have made with anyone isn't as deep as I think or am I so terrified to actually feel love and pain (?)

People may find new techniques for making cars and computers, new information about space, but they will never understand the sanctuaries of the heart; the abyss of the soul.

First Day

Today was the first actual day at school.
Schools have OFFICIALLY began!
For many this is a discouragement, for others not a big deal but for some a fresh start. A fresh start for better habits, behaviours and judgements. I consider myself part of this category of students.
This year is my last year of some relaxation and lazyness. Next year we are busting our asses
about getting into university. But I'm not planning to act lazy or anything like that. I will have a consistency in my studying so as to achive my goals with no worries later on.

To a certain extent, I can admit that I have missed all the fun that we had in the classroom. The laughs, the pranks...Even though all students here in Greece complain about the education system, they can tell you for sure that the most vivid memories they have are from school. With those green wooden desks, the green dusty blackboard, the broken lights and the trumbling chairs. All are parts of those exciting memories and experiences.

I wish to all of you that this year is even more fun than the last one, or the launch pad of a new adventure and friendships.
Lets make the most of it, shall we?

Creation.

The birth of nature.

Human Relationships.

I haven't been around and I thought that something was missing.

My way of expresion. Well, I have actually procrastinated this update because I wanted to see how things were going for me. These past few days were the launch pad of a new era. A lot of things changed in my life; looks, friends, places, situations. And even I have.

I firmly believe that I have started to observe things around me a lot more and with a new perspective that definately helps me. This 10 days were productive as hell! haha

I met a boy for whom I really don't know how I feel. But the thing I do know is that he is an amazing person. It is really extraordinairy how great he is and real. This summer I met people that were worth of attention.

To get to the chase, I have learnt a lot about human relationships. How complicated they can be. But I haven't yet figured the reason why. Why relationships with other people must be so hard to establish in the first place ? THEY utter that freindship and love are the world's best feelings, but why it is so difficult to get simply familiar with someone? Everybody says that they want to experience them, but no one seems to take a risk or even care to make the deed in the first place. Some might be afraid of the unknown, of the overwhelming feelings that these sentiments may cause, but why?

Is our society so depressing and practically insipid that only talks in theory about these things?

I dont think that we need more filosophers. These feelings are pretty simple.

So stop bitching about it and ride the coller-coaster. Even if there are some few bumbs or falls, it is always worth it to get back on and try again.