[Sorry for not posting anything these past two weeks, but I've been trying to get on with my life.. trying to overcome some things if you will. ]
The situation that I went through gave me a lesson. That a song can create the will, that a song can give you the feeling that you surely CAN continue with your life.. that you CAN move on; 'cause if you don't, you will be missing out on a lot of stuff.
Last week, I had the whole time to myself to think about what has been bugging me for the last few months.
> Love. <
Probably, it is a past love by now but anyway.
In seven days, I lost my faith;I lost the faith I had for all this time to people, I lost the faith I had about what I can achieve, and mostly, I lost the faith in me. But fortunately, all this became a journey. I had the luck to re-gain my faith to people. It is only when you are tested I suppose that you are blessed with these rare people; these people that you haven't thought much about, that you had never really paid attention to.
Those people now, can give you the best advice and perspective. Exactly what you need and have been carving for so long. That is what happened to me.
After a week of being miserable, this person with just 10 minutes of their time flipped my world around. Gave my courage to look my fears of opening up in the eye and gave me the strenght to keep going even if the result was not of my liking.
When you love something, the hardest thing is to let go. But if the other has already let you go, then it is even harder. And it just hit me; I have been putting myself into the position of getting my heart out there every day just, by night, to end up broken hearted. I was horrified with the idea, but now I see why I couldn't realise how it has been. I just wasn't myself anymore. And I needed someone to remind me that.
Monday night, was the night that I finally reacted and behaved the way I felt. It was the day, that I finally opened up, to the biggest level existing for me, so that I can get the closure that I needed. And let me tell you, it was tramendously liberating.
As I was going to school Tuesday morning, I was listening to music and the funny thing is that the songs that played sounded differently. I thought that these particular tracks were exactly what I needed to boost my confidence, but this was not the case.
I was different. This situation indeed changed me but in a weird way. I overcame the past, just by keeping in mind all those loving memories while looking forward.
I always said to others that time heals everything; even the biggest wounds.
When I found myself in such a situation, I realised that even if you don't believe that, it will happen.
It will hurt. It will ache so badly, but you will definately get out of it. step out of it. and keep walking onwards. Cause there is nothing greater after a period of chaos, to finally have the strenght to be truthfully, happy again.
