An extrovert.

It is a word that makes me think of the exact opposite of its meaning. Even when I try to consider it correclty, I find it very difficult.

Every person finds his own ways to express their emotions and what they feel. And almost everyone has found the way to do it and which methods should they follow in order to succed in it. But I guess I'm included in the small minority percentage of failure to succed in this part. At this period of my life, it is very crusial to let the people who are close to me, to know how I feel. And I have the need to. And I want to show them, but something gets in the way.

I have been trying a lot to figure ways of expressing myself, but I've learned one thing; The person you want to talk to, can't understand a lot of things except the real deal. Sometimes, when you are beating around the bush about something, they cannot understand that it is only because you find difficulties in expressing yourself, no matter how many times you have told them that you can't. They think that what you are about to say is bad for them and they are getting prepared for the worse, so they can't help you.

The bottom line is that, no one can help you. Some people say that when the right person and the right feelings are together at the same time, you can express yourself correctly and right to the point. But this is not the case.
When I was at the verge of losing an important individual from my life, I panicked! Even after taking a while, I finally managed to say what I feel. It was very difficult. Cold sweat was all over me. I was afraid that i might say something with the wrong words and mess it up. I kept making these stupid senarios in my head.

But last night, I came to a conclusion; You shouldn't get obsesed about what's going to happen next if you say how you feel. If the other person really cares for you, he or she will try equally as much as you do, to solve the issue. Don't be scared to risk. Because you can lose a lot great stuff; and I have lost many. But this time I denied to let this happen again. I risked, took a chance and expressed how I feel and even though it was quite hard to do, i did it. It is all about taking decisions..