My talent

This post is different from the other ones. I will write once about myself. I shuffle through these blogs and all I can see is people describing their days but nothing of a great value or help for the others. Why do others should care how was your trip to Maui or how big is the fish you caught with your second cousin and his sister in law? That's absurb.

I had a blog since I was in juniour high school. I used to write two entries, three max, and then simply delete them and acted like they never existed and opened a brand new blog. I don't know why I did that back then. But you see, after a long time I finally realised. You know, I have this talent, this distrurbing and unpleasant talent; pushing & hiding everything away.

Exhibit 1:
I deleted these entries. I hid what it took my so much time to write. I had no reason. I just did it. I cannot stop wondering what had got into my mind back then. Why did I keep starting over again from scratch and why I kept writting on a blog, even though I insistenly kept deleting after all?

Exhibit 2:
Friends. This one little word. I have now understood its real meaning. It took me almost sixteen years but I got it after all. Some people don't even care to bother.
I have kept so many people at a distance and all that because I don't want to trust. I don't want to be tricked. I just don't.

Exhibit 3:
love.

I could go on and on with these 'Exhibits' but that just pointless for me and tiring for you. And even if I know what is wrong with me I cannot make it better. At least I admit it. Take me for what I am. I play with all my cards open but still beat you in this game called life. You choose whatever you want, I choose values and my brains. I show exactly what I am and what my intentions are. Why don't you try it for once? What's your excuse?