Nefarious circle.

I should know by now I suppose..that what has happened in the past, it will happen in the present and even in the future, if you do nothing to prevent it. That's why mistakes happen over and over again and why many people end up being in past disfunctional relationships.

Everyone tells you to be outgoing and an optimist while a realist too. I should know, becuse I was one of those people. I might still be, but that's not the point. The point is that sometimes, when you face your past again, you get the feeling that something has changed. Something is different than before. You begin to feel captivated by the idea that you might have the opportunity to correct your past mistakes and give that certain someone a shot. Your logic keeps telling you not to go back, but your heart and the rest of your being yearns to give them a chance. After many musings and lot of complications, you finally do so. But it ends up being disappointing. You find out that they have changed. And not in a good way in most cases. Perhaps the new "you" and the new " theirs" is not compatible anymore. But I couldn't help but wonder; what if they haven't changed at all? What if while you talk to them it occurs you that they are still the same but fake something else to the others just to seem cool or become acceptible? Then what?

What if you had something true together? Something real that was ended rather unorthodoxiacally? What if the timing wasnt that right back then? What should you do then? You could go and set the record straingt or even tell them how you really feel after all. Some wouldn't advise you to do it, some would. But after all these What if 's, I finally have something figured out; That you don't have to base your actions on the should'a-would'a-could'a of others.

Trust your own insticts. Sometimes you will be wrong, sometimes right. It will not matter after a while 'cause it will all get better in time. The only thing that will matter will be the knowledge of the experience that will have definately made your insticts flawless and drama-proof for the next time.