A Taste From The Past

Summer 2007. Two intense and worth-remebering weeks.

When you have finally moved on and you have built a great life with the people you think matter to you the most, something from the past comes and knocks down almost everthing. One thing I know, is what's done it's done, and the past should remain at it's place.

A few words from someone that had quite an impact in your life can affect you very much, trust me. Even if they are from the past, the first kiss or the first real thing you have ever had, will always remain alive by both. It doesn't matter if you want to continue and move on, 'cause the first person you felt intense about will always come in & out of your life. And it is hopeless to try and stop it, because when you talk to them it is like you are powerless and apathetic about what happens around you.

But these people left your life then for a reason, even unknown, something happened and all the things you had fall apart, this doesnt mean that you must throw your life away. Even if they are the people who you will be a bit bonded to for almost all your life, it doesn't mean that they are your life.

From last night, I finally got the behaviour I deserved from "my" certain someone and I was deeply dimused. But when I woke up today, I came to the above conclusions. I love the life I have now. And I definately dont want to throw it away. The people who are in it are the people that I want to have in my life as long as I can. And however confusing this taste from the past might be, I will continue moving onwards, not backwards. I want to continue exploring my future with the people I have in my life now, rather than go back. Because now, I have found love. The most important feeling for me.


Ida Scott Taylor once wrote:
Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.